207 days and nothing but good news

hey you,

thanks for the call yesterday! I am so happy for you that you get to go in front of the parole board to get things straightened out! And in a month, that is super early as well. Isn't it that you usually would have to wait way longer for such an appointment? My fingers are crossed and I hope it will all go well. But if it is the same people as the last time I am not worried. Your mom must be super happy too.
I am on my way to Toronto. Lucky me I got internet on the bus, that givews me something to do for 3hrs. Just like writting you or checking my emails or waiting for that special man to wake up and get online.
Yeppers, I am still seeing the guy I told you about in the last letter. He is really amazing. Last saturday he took me to Ottawa. Just because I have never been there and he wanted to show me around. So we went skating on the Rideau Canal and he bought me a Beavertail to eat and after that he took me to the Parliament Building on a big tour. Keep your fingers crossed that this will work out for longer, because I really like him much. But for now I should get in vacation mood! Woot woot! So this is my plan for my 2 weeks in Germany: arriving Tuesday, chilling spending the day with my parents. Wednesday my sister will come and join us at my parents and my best friend Petra is gonna come too. Thursday, we will get up very early and take the train to Cologne. Dressed in costumes and drinks in the bag! Man the train will be crazy and drinking starts early in the morning. In Cologne we will meet another friend of mine, Tina! She flew in from Ireland to party with us. So party all day and night in Cologne. Friday we will take the train back home to my parents place and just have a chill day and propably a hang over! Saturday we go to the neighbor village and watch the Karneval's Parade and after that go to the big party there. Sunday it's the other neighbor village's parade and party and on monday we will go back to Cologne to watch the big and awesome Parade there. And Monday in Cologne we will meet another friend of mine from Heidelberg to party with.
Tuesday seightseeing in Cologne with my Roomy Jess. I think she either leaves Tuesday or Wednesday to go and meet her relatives in the Netherlands, so as of then I will spend my time driving to Mannheim to meet some friends and spend some days with my parents too! They are already complaining that I won't spend enough time with them, hahahahahahahaaa.
Yes, I will make sure that I take lots of pictures. But I won't promise you that I will behave, it's freaking Karneval. Nobody behaves during Karneval!!!
Anyways, I gotta go and enjoy the trip. Will talk to you as soon as I get back home! cheerio

214 days to go

214 days left, in 2 weeks you will beat the 200 mark. Woot Woot!
So I heard from your mom you are in Collins Bay and you got a cell all to yourself. I am glad that it worked out well for you. This way you have no one interrupting you and you won't have to sleep on the floor either.
I bet your mom told you I had a date. Hahahahahahaaa, come on you can be proud of me. It worked out very well. The guy is really nice and we even meet the following day again. He is lots of fun and we actually get along very well. He went to Totonto for the long weekend but I got a message from him everyday, wishing me a nice day or a good night. Oh now, come on be happy for me, will ya. I will make sure when you are out I will get your approval, but until then you will have to live with it as it is, lol.
Oh you wanna know more about him, okay: he is 31, works as an IT Coordinator for Queen's University. He is a bit taller than me not much though, brown eyes and brown hair. He for sure is not as build as you or any guy at the gym but that's not what is important.
He took me bowling the other day, he tried to let me win but I sucked and he won both games. lol, it was my second time bowling, ever. But we had a good time.
Anyways, that's that!
Nothing new at the gym. Same old same old. I just go do my work out and out I am. I barely know anyone anymore. It's not the same as before. More and more cardio machines break down and still nothing gets fixed. Then for Valentine's Day they had this ridiculous decoration from the Dollarstore all over. Little sparkling hearts in pink, red and purple. I swear all over the gym! It just looked hideous. Let's see what the pull out for Easter!
So in 7days I will be on my way toy Germany. I hope by the time I get back my visitor's application will be approved so I can come and visit you. If I have time I will send you a few postcards, but do not hope for much writing on it, I might have to write them drunk, since we are celebrating Karneval! lol

I told you about Karneval, right? It's that big old tradition that starts November 11th, every year and goes to Ashwednesday. And the Thursday before Ashwednesday is the 1st day of the final 5 days of Karneval. Everything is crazy and nobody works. Well at leats not in Cologne. Except paramedics and Police and stuff. They will have their hands full with those ones not knowing their limits in regards of alcohol. But besides that Cologne turns into a big Party. All over the streets and all the bars and pubs. Everybody celebrates with everybody. And everybody is friends with everybody for 5 days. I love it! Just the perfect time when nobody fights for stupid reasons. and everybody wears some kind of a costume. So I will be a cookie monster, lol! People come up with the most funiest costumes ever. The usually make them themselves. Once I saw a group of girls and every girl was a different fruit, like straberry, pear, banan, cherry, apple, etc. I asked what they were and the said they are a fruit salad! Man, I laughed so hard. But that is how Karneval is! And in Cologne they celebrate it every year.
I will take lot's of pics and will bring them for the visit, but you gotta promise me not to laugh at me! Maybe I will leave the really bad ones out, lol!
Anyways, I just wanted to check on you. Glad to hear that you are doing fine and that you are at Collins Bay. You know you are kinda my neighbor right now, eh?
Well, behave, do not get yourself in trouble. It's just for a few months more.

221 days to go!

So what's new??? I have talked to your mom last saturday night. She told me you were in the TD Unit in Kingston. Let's see where the gonna decide to put you. I hope you are behaving yourself and not getting into any stupid fights.

I had a little apartment warming. Only a few people came over. It was kinda sad but I guess now I know who are my good friends. My ex-roomates were over, Becky, a guy that I boxed with with Daniele, one of my employees and Daniele. Nice little group and we had lots of fun. We played Jenga for most of the time. Sunday I went shopping to the US. The guy at US customs asks me why I came over from Germany? I said I wanted to live in the best country of the whole wide world! He asked if I meant the US? Nope, Sir I mean Canada! Why not the US?, he asked. Well, I had a gun pointed at my face in the US, not so nice. That won't happen in Canada! lol!

Silly Americans, think they got the best country, but they don't! But sssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh, do not tell them, they would deny it anyways.

On Monday morning I just got to work, just took my coat off and went to the desk to check what's new and exciting. And here he walks in. My big boss! He asked if I had a few minutes? What a silly question, of course do I have a few minutes for him, even if I would not have any time, I would make time. So we sit down and he starts questioning my schedlue and labour hours. Well, I go get the schedules for the next 4 weeks and show him why I schedule the way I do and *boooom* it makes all sense to him. Then I pull a report that states that I only have a 9% labour cost compared to my revenue and he is blown of the chair! *baaaaaam*

Then he starts questioning the room rates and if we are competitive enough and stuff. So I explain everything in detail again and tell him the whys and stuff. Finally he seems to be a happy camper. And leaves with the comment: Biba I can't say often enough how thrilled I am that you are with us!

*Jackpot, Baby! * Yes, that is what I want to hear! After all the crazy hours I work someone acknowledging my work! Nice! That just made my day!

The gym is pretty boring nowadays! Nothing going on there. No one to chat too. Joey is gone, but I told you that. And they have those 2 new guys that I could swear are from across the street. They seem to be doing a good job. That Tom guy, the GM, is still there too. He is there all the time. Even on the weekends or late at night. It seems he is living at the damn gym. But it also seems like he is getting little things done. For example the rusty little shelfs in the shower cabins are finally gone! Man, they were disgusting! Now there are no shelfs to put your shampoo. Pretty inconvenient but better than the rusty shelfs.

Besides that all the same at the gym.

Oh something I wanted to tell you. I just finished reading the autobiographie of Charles Chaplin. Awesome book, that man was a very intellegent man and he wrote a lot of very good things in his book. And his life was very exciting too. All the ups and downs he went through and all the challenges he mastered. It is totally worth reading!!! You should check if you can get it.

Okay that is the exciting stuff for today. Make sure you are okay! Behave and do not get yourself in trouble.

another 225 days...

Hey you,

I am glad I was able to see you last Sunday. Since this could be my last visit for the next 5 weeks. You never know.

So, the judge made his decision and decided for 2 years, less time served. Wow, what a bummer. But I still think it was a "fair" meet in the middle. A compromise that I guess both sides can handle. It will be another tough time for you, to stay on track and not let go the thought of a "normal" life without all the hassle. And what is 225 days if we already managed over 365 days??? That sounds like peanuts, and those months hopefully will fly by in no time.

To bad that your lawyer wasn't able to submit my offer of accommodation for you. I am not certain it would have helped but it would have been nice to have the judge see that there are people out here that see the positive you.

Now I do not know what to do in my apartment. I got 2 bedrooms but only really use 1. hahahahahahaaaa! I already was fine with the thought of giving up that little piece of freedom and have you live here, cook for me and just be around. Well, I guess that is not happening. But I want to let you know that that offer will always be there for you.

So, you have 225 days left and I do have 18 days left until my big trip. I was asked if I did start packing yet. lmao! People are too funny. I do not start packing until the day before. You never know what the weather is gonna be like, and before I gonna tear apart the entire suitcase I rather wait until the day before. I am very much excited to see my family. I can not believe I haven't seen them for 2 years now. Time really flew by without stopping.

The gym is the same old same old. Nothing new. I told you about Joey and him staying in his hometown. I hope he will not fall back in old habits. I wish him the best for his future.

I attended some aerobic classes with a co-worker. Just to get a different workout, since Daniele has dropped me as a student I need something different. I still can not believe that after all I did for Daniele, that she just stopped training me. I guess that's what you get sometimes for being a supportive friend. It's a rough world!

Anyways, gotta hit the dreamland for tonight.

Keep your head up 225 days is nothing. You can do it!

Happy F**king New Year!

Hey man,

hope you had some decent holidays. I know, what can be decent about the where abouts where you actually had to spend the holidays, but you never know. Did they feed you good turkey at least? I bet you traded all you festiv deserts for more turkey and sweet potatos! lol
What did you do for new years eve? Probably just hanging around and reading.
In Germany New Years Eve is celebrated with big fireworks. Everybody goes out and buys fireworks to blow off at midnight. In the big cities those fireworks go on for at least half an hour sometimes longer. It's awesome. You see them go up all around you, every direction. Just beautiful! And bars and clubs are open all night long, just like every weekend. hahahahaahaaaa
What I did this year? Well I went down southern Ontario spending some time with the family. My cousin actually played at a bar with his band for New Years Eve. So we went there. Good times! Partied until 5am!
I am kinda glad the holidays are over. Man, people go crazy over the holidays. I mean the forget how to drive, they are being rude and ignorant. What happened to the christmas spirit?
Back to normal! I like my daily routine. Work, gym, sleep! Okay, okay I know, no wonder I am still single, this is not the way to meet people, but I like it. And you know what Prince Charming will find me and will come riding along the road on his white horse in shining armour! pahahahahahahahahaaaaa (as if...)
Anyways, let's see what else is happening right now. Oh yeah I finally got my christmas package from Germany. The one that was in the mail for over 5 weeks. The cookies are still good, a bit dry but yummy. And I got my presents. 2 CDs from German musicians that I like. Woot woot...
And German Chocolate. I wish I could share some with ya, but I will make sure I get ya some when it's time.
I am back to work. Did I tell you I hired Daniele as my new Night Audit. She was looking for a job with a regular paycheck and I was in desperate need for a Night Audit. Here we go problem solved. So this morning (Jan. 3rd) I got to work early and met Daniele before she left. I forgot to ask her though when we would be back training so I texted her. Her reply is: oh no you gotta go back to train with Corey. Me: what? did I miss anything? Daniele: well, yes, remember when we talked mid december about me working overnight not sleeping right and not being able to train early in the evening but only late, bla bla bla... Me: well yes but I thought we would schedule last minute and do it that way.
So end of the story: I am with no f**king coach no more! What the hell? How am I supposed to train now? Man, I tell you I am angry. I really am the last one standing at Premier Fitnes and now Daniele drops me too. So sucks. This year ain't starting good, at all. Can you please come back? I know if it would be that easy...
Well, here you go those are all the news for today.
57 days to go to Germany. Can't wait for the trip. And I promise you I will still be coming and seeing you and writing you and talking to you.
Oh oh oh, did I tell you what costume I want for Karneval? I want to be a cookie monster. Hahahahahaahaaa..., yes a cookie monster. The blue goes really well with my eyes and the cookie monster costume I have seen for women is actually really cute. I will send ya a picture when I got the costume.
Well, I better go and text your mom that I am back before she will send the K9 out to look for me. I guess I will talk to you soon, if not see ya in a few.
As always, stay out of trouble and something new: don't get comfortable! :)

Eye Opener

You are right! Do I really know you? No, I don't. At least I can't say O know you or better I don't know all about you. But what I Know is what or who I met over a year ago. I met a Corey that highly inspired me. A Corey that was capable og going above and beyond to train his students. A Corey who knew how to push me beyond my limits. Someone that helped me not to give up. I also met a Corey that had some kind of past. A past he wouldn't want to talk about. In fact I met a Corey that was available for everybody to help out, to listen, to teach, but not opening up to anyone about himself. It wasn't hard to figure out the "dark secret". So shortly after that I met a new Corey. Someone that is a bit more the true Corey. Is it though? I don't know. I believe I do know, but truly I don't. The few weeks I was able to watch you, I saw many different yous. I saw you funny, playing with kids, but I also saw the irrate Corey. Someone so upset, close to loosing it. A Corey that is harsh to his students, trying to contain the upsetness. I saw you falling for someone. Which I thought wasn't possible. But you did anyways, and it gave you strength. Strength to resist the one Corey who got himself in trouble.
Here is what I think about that Corey, that I met. I know sometime in the past he did a mistake. He paid for it and learned that this is not what he wants for his life. I think Corey wants to be free. Corey wants to teach, "make good people". I think Corey does not want to go back to jail. He has to work hard for it, that much is clear. It might be easier to just let the old Corey out, but that would not help to accomplish that goal. The goal of freedom. I also just recently learned minor facts about you. You do believe in god! You have a brother that you are proud of! Your middle name is William! Just some small facts, but I am open for more. I want to meet more of Corey. If he wants and allows me, I want to get to know the angry Corey so I understand why he thinks he has a right to rule and be as angry as he is. I want to know the Corey that opened up his heart and revealed himself, all guards down. And therefore got hurt and betrayed. Just like every other person out here. I want to meet the "god believing" and "family loving" Corey. The one that cares for his mom and tries to protect her just as she did when he was unprotected. The on brother that is proud of his brother and wishes him well. In fact I want to neet every single version of Corey that is out ther, inside of you. Why? I want to understand. I want to be able to do the right thing as a friend. I do understand I won't get all of the stories, I am surely not looking for those anyways. I want to be able to help th current Corey to become and accomplish what he wants. I am not afraid of any of the Coreys. Why? Because you promised me once that you wouldn't hurt me. And I think that all the different yous agreed on that promise. So you go ahead and give me the evil face, the clinched fist or showing me your strength. You might be able to scare me for a moment btu only because I worry about you.

Alysa

I am worried. Really I am worried right now. I had no chance to hear what the medical issue is but your mom said it will take a long time for you to get back in shape.
But I am more worried about the Alysa situation. I know it upsets you. And I probably didn't say the things you wanted me to say. I probably should not have said not to call me. Because right now you are in the need of someone to talk to. And it probably sounded like I don't want you to call me. Which is not the case. I love it when you call unexpected. Hearing that you hanging in there, behaving and still going your way. But today you really have me worried.
I feel with you. I know how it feels having the heart broken by someone that you trust completly. I hear you, when you say you don't understand what's going on, you just received postcards form europe saying she loves you and wants to take you all those places and show you the world and the next moment she won't talk to you and kind of disappears. You are far away from home and still not where you should be. The whole situation is F**ked up! But I am pretty sure you can handle it. You have been through worth and as I always say, you have friends here waiting for you, your mom is here to support you as much as she can and so is your brother.
By the way I didn't know you had a brother until your mom mentioned something when I talked to here the other day. So there is another one of your kind out there, ey!
Now it's time to smile again. Come on just a tiny one! Please, please, pretty please?!?
See here we go! *SMILE*
Life is gonna go on and you will be alright! As my mom used to say to me when I was little: until you get married all wounds will be healed. (translation is terrible but it kinda states the point)

So much for today, not sure if I will drive you mom down to Lindsay tomorrow so she can see you, but I hope she will do it. I think you need a familiar person right now. Someone you know and can talk to. Besides when did you see your mom last??? She misses you much.
Anyways, I'm here for you! I might be harder to reach than the pope but I am here. And you know how to leave my a message. These stubborn GErmans never go away, believe me! lol